Where do I fit in? - translated into Georgian

 saqarTvelo, sad vipovo SenTan Cemi adgili?

Aaxla rodesac gacilebiT meti vici masze, minda ki es namdvilad?

genderuli sakiTxebisadmi tradiciuli damokidebuleba saqarTveloSi jer kidev dominirebs. mSeneblebi Tbilisis erT-erT centralur ubanSi Canda sakmaod garkveulebi iyvnen qalis rolze maT sazogadoebaSi,

“idealuria roca kaci ojaxis Tavi da marCenalia, qali ki ojaxSia da zrunavs masze. esaa swored harmoniuli ojaxi” Tqva erTma.

es ZiriTadad is Tvalsazrisia, romelsac qveynis sakmaod Zlieri eklesia qadagebs. 2012 wlis aprilis erT-erT sakvirao wirvaze Tbilisis MmTavar kaTedralur taZarSi, qarTuli marTlmadidebluri eklesiis meTauri ilia II qadagebda:

“kacs abaria ojaxi da misi rCena, qali ki saxlSi unda elodebodes da daRlil meuRles mosvlisTanave miegebos, fexebi dabanos.”

aq araferi iyo naTqvami qarTul ojaxebSi “ojaxis ufrosis” mier qalebis mimarT ganxorcielebul Zaladobis kargad dokumentirebul maRal maCveneblebze. es sityvebi TiTqosda saqarTveloSi mimdinare qalTa moZraobis aRmavlobis gamo Semokruli glovis zarebia. es moZraoba TandaTan Zalas ikrebs, qalebi cdiloben xma aimaRlon Zaladobaze da maT patriarqalur sazogadoebaSi uflebebis mopovebisaTvis aqtiuroben. mamakacTa da qalTa zemoT naxsenebi aseTi erTi SexedviT sasacilo saqcielis molodiniT xdeba arsebuli genderuli stereotipebis waqezeba, mowoneba da samaradJamod damkvidreba am ojaxuri mona-morCilobis ciklisa *(2). rogorc es gavrcelebul qarTul gamoTqmaSia “qalma unda icodes misi adgili”. . . qalebisaTvis aq dResaviT naTelia maTi adgili da is maTi mamakacebis gverdiT namdvilad araa.

SemiZlia amis mqadageblis pativiscema mas Semdeg rac man qalebisTvis gaimeta? Cemgan es pativiscema zustad igive zomis iqneba rac TviT aqvs mas Cems mimarT. ojaxuri Zaladobis miRebis da misTvis mwvane Suqis anTebis gamo, me ukve aRar maqvs didi survili sadme mainc vipovo aq Cemi adgili. qalTa sruli qedmoxrilobis sakiTxi ar aris unikaluri saqarTvelosTvis. ase, rom vgoneb Rirs Cavixedo cota Rrmad sazogadoebaSi da mis tradiciebSi da iqneb mivagno sad SeiZleba gamovnaxo aq adgili, an movergo.

zogjer Cagecineba adamians ise emTxveva movlenebis wlisTavebi da pirad mtrebTan dakavSirebuli dReebi erTmaneTs. patriarqis es qadageba, TiTqosda sagangaSod Semokruli zarebi, emTxveva saqarTvelosTan Cemi sakuTari piradi urTierTobis dakargvis glovis zarsa da dards. me marTlac mWirdeba imis gaazreba da gageba Tu sad da rogor unda megrZno Tu vigrZno (isev?) Tavi aqaurobis nawilad.

axlaxans davbrundi qarTuli simReris nvirekulida, romelic gaimarTa Sotlandiis mTianeTSi arsebuli findhornis fondSi. aq, findhornis kvireulSi monawileobis misaRebad mowveulebi iyvnen raTa sakuTar Tavze ganecadaT zogs pirvelad, zogs kide Cemi ar iyos meramdened, sixaruli qarTuli simReris Sesrulebisa da aJRerebisas gancdili, TrTola misi bgerebis aTrTolebasTan erTad. Sinagan TrTola-vibrirebasTan dakavSireba sakmaod rTuli saqmea CvenTvis, dasavlelebisaTvis, qarTuli simReris musika swored am saqmes emsaxureba, rac mas unikalurobas aniWebs. Sinagani vibraciis miyuradebiT, moTokviT da am energiis sakuTari “me”sken warmarTviT adamians SeuZlia gaigonos da igrZnos am uzarmazari energiis rezonansi gacilebiT Sors da Rrmad vidre ubralod xmis JReraa, TiTqosda bgerebis bombi afeTqebula am “me”s SigniT. es is tradiciuli midgomaa simReris mimarT, romelsac dasavleTSi viyenebT. es im energiasTan kavSiria, romelsac qarTvelebi “bunebriv” mdgomareobad miiCneven, da ar sWirdebaT maT amisTvis ganmartoveba magaliTad, bunebaSi, rogorc amas axali drois stereotipuli  hipuri mogzaurebi akeTeben, rodesac laSqroben Sotlandiis mTebSi sakuTar TavTan yofnis da Wvretis, ganmartoebis survilis dasakmayofileblad. is harmonia, rasac es Sinagani vibraciebi qmnian uaRresad gamamxnevebelia da SeuZlia gulis kari gaxsnas, goneba ganwmidos da frenis SegrZnebac gangacdevinoT, Tu ra Tqma unda araa zedapiruli da guliT da gonebiT namReria.

sad SeiZleba aseTi TrTolvis gancdis Semdeg adgili movunaxo am arqaul da modi davarqvaT Tavisi saxeli, warmoudgenel da qedmaRlur gancxadebas romelic saqarTvelos patriarqma gaakeTa? rac me minaxavs da gamigonia saqarTveloSi bevri qali, iqneba es feministi Tu visTvisac sruliad gaugebaria feminizmi, erTnairad eTanxmeba raRac donemde saqarTvelos eklesiis mier maT win dadebul ZiriTad principebs, imitom rom es sazogadoebaSi maTi rolebis gansazRvraSi exmarebaT, im sazogadoebaSi, romelmac faqtobrivad dakarga sakuTari gza genderul sakiTxebTan dakavSirebiT.

gansxvavdeba agreTve qarTuli gageba da gamocdileba am vibraciuli, mTrTolvare energiis daniSnulebisa, Cven dasavleTSi gviZneldeba aseTi ramisgan sargebeli vipovoT.

problema maSin Cndeba, rodesac es mamoZravebeli Zala Tu energia ganuyofeli nawilia im sazogadoebrivi rolebisa, romelic mosaxerxebelia mxolod mamakacTaTvis. ase magaliTad, aq kacs ase awyobs qals sjerodes, rom es kavSirebi( energia) unikaluria da maTi kulturis memkvidreobaa, ris gamoc xelSeuxebeli unda iyos. bevri qarTveli am Sinagan energias endoba da hgonia is maT TavianT TanamemamuleebTan daakavSirebs da daaaxlovebs. bevri mas usafrTxoebisa da erTobis SenarCunebis saSualebad aRiqvams (romelic SeiZleba mogeCvenoT an ar mogeCvenoT iluziad), agreTve genderul identobadac (savaraudod meore iluzia), romelic sabWoTa kavSiris darRvevamde sakmaod Tanaswori iyo (genderul Tanasworobas vgulisxmob)*(3).

SesaZlebelia qalebma daijeron rom isini am energiebis da kavSirebis gareT arseboben rodesac maTSidac igive vibraciebi warmoiSoba? Cemi mxridan saqarTveloSi sul mcire 6-jer stumroba (miwveviT) Cems erTgvar Zalisxmevasac unda niSnavdes, yovel SemTxvevaSi mcdelobas mainc, gamego da gza gamekvlia am sakiTxis irgvliv arsebul morevSi.

eklesiis garda qarTuli xalxuri musikisa da sagaloblebis (sanam rusebi akrZalavdnen) yvelaze tradiciul adgilad sufra miiCneva, romelic ZiriTadad aRqmulia mikrokosmosad ufro didi makro qarTuli sazogadoebisa. ucxoel stumars guliTadad maspinZloben *(5) da am tradiciis Tanamonawiled xdian, rac ramdenadac mesmis saukeTeso adgilia am sakiTxebTan Sexebisa da dakvirvebisaTvis. sad aris qalebis adgili am mikrokosmosSi, ara mxolod Cemi, dasavleli qalis, aramed TviTon qarTveli qalebis?

gansxvavebebi dasavleTsa da saqarTvelos Soris, masSi Tu ra warmodgena gvaqvs sufraze, rogor vakvirdebiT da aRtacebaSi movdivarT misiT aSkara da cxadi iyo gasuli kviris erT saRamos konferenciaze findhornSi, sadac qarTuli sufra iyo gamarTuli. es sufra tradiciuli iyo im gagebiT, rom gvyavda Tamada, gvqonda mis mier SemoTavazebuli sadRegrZeloebi da gvyavda maspinZeli, fondis mxatvruli direqtori. xalxis urTierTobebi da saqcielic magidasTan TanxmobaSi iyo TamadasTan, romelic Zalian poeturi adamiani iyo da rac mTavaria kargad gaTviTcnobierebuli qarTul da inglisur wes-CveulebebSi. sufra tradiciuli iyo im gagebiTac, rom yovel sadRegrZelos moyveboda qarTuli simRera da TiToeuli sufris wevris gulidan amomaval sityvebs, romlebic sadRegrZelos ukavSirdeboda miesalmeboda irgvliv yvela. tradiciuli iyo imitomac, rom karga xans gagrZelda da vsvamdiT wiTel Rvinos, rogorc pativiscemis kidev erTi dasturi, ra Tqma unda sadRegrZelos Semdeg da ara manamde.

swored aq damTavrda sufris tradiciuli gagebis idea da Semdeg Cemi azriT, erTob inglisur/evropulma momentebma iCines Tavi. Tavdapirvelad unda vaxseno Tamadis roli da TviT Tamada, romelsac ramden qarTul sufrazec ar vyofilvar iSviaTad Tu vinme amCnevs xolme, stumrebi xSirad erTmaneTSi layboben, an sulac mobilur telefonebze saubroben, zogi SeiZleba mRerodes kidec an xmamaRla gacxarebiT laparakobdes misTvis saintereso Temebze. Cemi gagebiT, rodesac sufraze msgavsi ram dasaSvebi xdeba maSin es udaod cudi Tamadis niSania. amis sapirispirod, Cvens Sotlandiur sufraze yvela erTmaneTs usmenda da mxars ubamda, yvelas erTi sasaubro Tema aerTianebda, yvela Tamadis  sufris warmarTvis saucxoo niWiT moxibluli, krZalviT SevyurebdiT mas. igrZnoboda erToba, raRac axalic gavigeT da viswavleT kidec. Cveni Tamada gaxldaT frenk qeini, romelmac Cemi azriT didi samuSao Seasrula da gvaCvena Tu rogori SeiZleba iyos da unda iyos sufra. “Tana-moTamaded” ki mas qali hyavda, erTob mgrZnobiare da Wkviani qali, mkafio metyvelebiT da naTeli saubriT. sxva qalebsac masTan erTad TavianTi wvlili SehqondaT sufris erTobaSi da mxiarulebaSi. mikrofoni gadadioda xelidan xelSi, yvelas visac Tavisi azris da gulidan amomavali sityvebis Tqma undoda, ambobda amas Tamamad. sufrasTan isxdnen TeTrkaniani da Savkaniani qalebi, maRlebi Tu dablebi, protestantebi, qalebi kelturi warmomavlobiT, amerikidan, iaponiidan. Sotlandielma qalma marjeri breim imRera qarTuli qalTa saritualo simRera, romelsac maSinve xmebi Seuwyves sufris wevrma qalebma. es iseTi saocari ram iyo, yovelgvari SiSis gareSe, laRad Sesrulebuli, rom me marTlac vigrZeni Tavi raRac gansakuTrebulis nawilad da me vgrZnobdi: me mindoda iq yofna.

es ar gavda tradiciul qarTul sufras, sadac qali arc gverdiT uzis Tavis mamakacs da verc imas naxav sadRagrZelos ambobdes. Tu ar gagimarTla da ar xar stumari qali, maSin mogiwevs umetesi drois samzareuloSi gatareba nairnairi kerZebis mosamzadeblad, qarTveli qalis rolic esaa: sufris msvlelobisas axal-axali da cxel-cxeli Semoitanos xolme, TefSebi da nasufrali akrifos magididan da ZiriTadad xelze moaxled emsaxuros sufris wevrebs. arasodes gamigonia qarTul sufraze qals sityva eTqvas da rodesac me vecade erTxel, maSinve gamaCumes da damarwmunes, rom es normaluri movlena iyo, damariges kidec Semdegac ase movqceuliyavi*(4). gekiTxebiT, sad da ratom unda mepova iq Cemi adgili, ormag standartebSi, Semdeg rom Tavi uaryofilad da ignorirebulad megrZno da Cemi TavisTvis damesva kiTxva, saerTod aq ra mindodaTqo?

findhornis sufra iyo cocxali, sazeimo, sufris yvela wevri saerTo mxiarulebaSi CarTuli, Tavazianebi sapirispiro sqesis mimarT. kerZebic, Tavis mxriv Zalian gemrieli da ubralo, ar warmoadgenda raRac rTul da CaxlarTul kulinarul Sedevrebs. maT Semqmnel mzareulebsac (orive sqesisas) didi madloba da gansakuTrebuli xseneba ergoT sufris wevrebisgan. es findhornis fondis damokidebuleba da midgoma kidev erTi mowmoba iyo aseTi fesvgadgmuli pativiscemisa pirvel rigSi da mec Tavs ra Tqma unda Zalian komfortulad vgrZnobdi, vgrZnobdi rom imaTi nawili viyavi. didi gansxvaveba qarTulsa da am Sotlandiur sufras Soris enis barieris ar arseboba iyo, aq yvela inglisurad saubrobda.

amasTan dakavSirebiT maxsendeba erT-erTi yvelaze gulsatkeni sufra CemTvis, sadac Tavs ukiduresad arakomfortulad vgrZnobdi, es lxini gaimarTa  britaneTSi. am sufraze yvela inglisurad saubrobda qarTvelebis garda, Tumca sakmaod kargad SeeZloT gagebac da azris gadmocemac, magram. .. pirvelad aq vigrZeni uxerxulad Tavi, TiTqos raRac ise ar iyo, rogorc unda yofiliyo, magram radgan qarTuli ar mesmoda ver vgebulobdi ra xdeboda. maT gverdiT adgils ver vpoulobdi. zedapirulad ase Canda, viTom yvelaferi Cveulebrivad midioda, magram Cemi qarTveli Tanameinaxeebi aSkarad normalurze ufro mets miRimodnen da micinodnen, sicilic raRac siTbos moklebuli iyo. mogvianebiT ramdenime wyarodan gavige, rom iq myofi qarTvelebis (kacebis) saubrebi Seicavda damamcirebel da seqsualuri konteqstis mqone Seuracxmyofel komentarebs Cemi misamarTiT. ese igi, am uxamsi komentarebis fonze TvalebSi  miyurebdnen, micinodnen, sadRegrZeloebs ambobdnen da TavianTi turnes warmatebas zeimobdnen. me ar minda amis nawili da moziare viyo. (es Zalian bevr cudze metyvelebs am konkretul qarTvel kacebis Sesaxeb da arafers Cemze, aqve minda aRvniSno, rom qalTa dayofa qaliSvilebad da bozebad gavrcelebuli  Temaa saqarTveloSi).

stumar qarTvelebs Soris Cems sakuTar qveyanaSi Tavi mousvenrad da ucxod vigrZeni, maSin roca sxvadasxva rasis, kulturisa da rwmenis warmomadgenlebTan findhornSi, romlebic gulaxdilebi da didi pativiscemiT gamsWvalulebi iyvnen qarTuli kulturis da tradiciebis mimarT Cemi xma TrToda simRerisas, suli maRldeboda, gulis kari iReboda da Tvalebi mibrwyinavda. me netarebaSi viyavi, radgan Tavs iqaurobis nawilad vTvlidi.

SeiZleba saqarTvelos patriarqs surdes gansazRvros qalTa roli qarTul sazogadoebaSi ise, rom maT ver SeZlon WeSmariti sixaruliT ibrwyinon TavianT qveyanaSi. SeiZleba mas surdes isini saxlSi isxdnen da pasiurad elodebodnen qmrebis mosvlas, raTa maT fexebi dabanon. SeiZleba qalebis umravlesoba amas normad aRiqvams, rom ara aqvs xmis amoRebis ufleba, da rom verasodes Seicvleba rame. maSin, keTili batono.

Tu mxolod esaa qarTuli sufra, saqarTveloSi namaspinZlari, kacTa mier dominirebuli, romlebic elodebian am gauTavebeli kerZebis mzadebis da samzareuloSi qancis gawyvetis Semdeg rogor mieaxlebian maT colebi karebSi Sesvlisas da fexebs dabanen, Tu mxolod esaa qarTuli keTilSobileba da stumar-maspinZloba, maSin madlobT, magram me marTlac ar msurs aq Cemi adgilis povna an am yvelafris nawilad gaxdoma.

me vipovi adgils albaT im qalebs Soris, visac ar surs maT xedavdenen monebiviT qedmoxrilebs, romlebsac ar gaaCniaT aranairi xma, da cdiloben Tavi daimkvidron, gaixaron sakuTari individualobiT, ipovon dakarguli xmebi, gaaRon gulis karebi da gulianad imReron TavianTi sakuTari simRerebi. . .…am qalebis gverdiT miguleT mec.

*(1) Has feminism arrived in Georgia?  Damien McGuinness BBC News Tbilisi

*(2) www.unfpa.org/public/home/news/pid/13518

*(3) www.ge.boell.org/web/116-996.html

*(4) scholarworks.iu.edu/journals/index.php/aeer/article/view/1249/1332

*(5) A Guest is a Gift from God Coner McKeever

With thanks for the translation  by eliso sarava