Corruption
Smoke swirled lazily into
each corner of the third floor room. The Chinese official lit up again, the
glow from the end of his cigarette off set the blue white snow reflected from
outside. Cold crept
along the floor, along the desk and hunkered down among the creases of the crumpled bedding
on which the woman sat.
A steady stream of Chinese
and Georgian language interwove ice-cold breath and the interpreter,
a chunky
young woman layered in woollen jumpers, jackets and scarf switched languages
effortlessly
between the two men, one Georgian, one Chinese as the final
details of the choir’s China tour were
thrashed out.
Watching them move and weave
through the complex negotiations the woman noticed how the
man sat, lent forward,
nervously twirled his mobile and constantly checked his watch. It made her
uneasy. She recognised the signs and knew he was moving up a gear. She wanted to remain
anonymous. There was an oppressive mood. It was
dangerous. The drive to the isolated
Chinese Railroad Company building high
above the city had been full of unspoken tensions between
them. Once again she
felt side-lined, hurried, manipulated and suspended in a void of half-truths
and shadowy half- finished conversations. The Man’s facade was beginning to
slip. The woman
saw the darkness beneath his handsome face struggling to be
contained, the sharpness in his voice
was clear as he stumbled over
explanations and tried desperately to remember what lies he had told
her so as
to continue to create the illusion of security, of love, of trust.
This was a new game. The
Chinese had wanted him to take the choir to China to be part of a festival
earlier in the year but the Chinese leader had died so the trip had had to be post-phoned.
It just so
happened that they had contacted him as the artistic director whilst
she was in the country visiting.
This is what she had assumed and he, tired of
her questions, let her believe that. Her gut screamed
at her, ‘Be careful, he
lies’ and her suspicions surrounding his motives grew more and more.
The woman
began to feel the connection between them slipping away. She was not sure of
anything
anymore.
He looked nervous. She
sensed things were not going well, he made to stand up and suddenly there
was a
flurry of activity, the Chinese official waved him back down furiously and
picked the phone up
on the desk opposite the bed. Urgent scribbling on paper scattered
with doodles on the desk filled
up with numbers. The man shook his head each
time, the official spoke quicker and quicker to the
anonymous voice at the
other end of the line and finally the musician glanced over at the woman,
looked past her and half smiled. The game was on.
They left. Confused she
waited for him to calm down before she asked him what had happened.
Smiling
through triumphant teeth, he said that tomorrow they would return and sign an
agreement
that each member of the choir would be paid $1000 for an all expenses
trip to China where they
would perform only two 15 minute concerts. ‘That’s great’ the woman
said, ‘another $1000 for you
to help build the apartment.’ He had bought an
apartment in a new high rise at the bottom of the plateau
area of the city some
years ago that he had proudly shown to her and said that that was to be their
marital home. The apartment was unfinished and as far as she could tell no new
work had been
done on it in 2 years despite him saying it would be ready, ‘by
Christmas’ and then, ‘by the summer.’
He laughed, it sounded
hollow. ‘Nooo,’ he almost sneered, ‘I will have $7000 from this deal and
I will
use it for another project’ Uneasily she looked at his profile; he had turned
the Georgian
Folk music up and was conducting with his right hand. ‘How?’ she
asked. ‘I am keeping all this
money’ he
replied. The gulf between them widened.
They spent the rest of the
afternoon driving around Tbilisi, he on his phone and meeting
various people
who handed over their passports. The sky was brooding and threatening more
snow
and icy fingers of cold drifted into the car. The woman sat miserable,
neglected and waiting
whilst he did his deals, one foot perched on the kerb, shoulders
hunched forward and hands thrust
deep in his pockets. Another of the six precious
days she had planned to be with him, disappeared.
The next day they went back
to the smoke filled room where the stocky interpreter and the small
Chinese man
were waiting. This time the bed was made and there were empty coffee cups on
the
desk at one end of the room. Used tissues lay scattered around the floor.
He signed some official
documents, they shook hands and with a sly smile and dead eyes, the deal
was
sealed. The choir were due to leave the following Friday so the visas needed to
be applied for;
and quickly.
The ride into the capital in
the company BMW cream leathered interior imbued with cigarette
smoke was
unpleasant. Sarah sat in the back feeling sick with hunger and realisation. Her
lover
played with the sound system. Uninvited he assumed possession of the CD
player and changed
tracks much to the irritation of the driver. The Chinese
embassy were expecting them and all
three by-passed the security checks and sat
at a table to start filling in forms.
He called five people. Three
men. Two women. The same people who had handed over their
passports yesterday.
He spoke quickly and without hesitation or interruption and wrote their
passport numbers on each form. She had offered to help fill the forms in but he
had
brushed her offer off with a dismissive wave of the hand. When it became
clear however,
that it was going to take him a long time to finish the task he
pushed a pen towards her and growled,
‘Write it’. Feeling
uncomfortable, hungry,
sick and desperate for it to be over she filled in what she could and passed
them back to him.
The
man forged a signature for each document.
It
was clear this was normal procedure and the woman sat silently as the anger
built inside her. She thought of the hours and hours she had put and continued
to put into getting his choir members legitimate visas to visit the UK. Corruption
clearly seemed to underpin the things this man did. Irritated and alarmed she
resolved to tackle him on his idea of honestly and fairness the minute they
were alone.
Once the forms were filled
in, photocopies taken and official stamps given the Chinese man drove them, the
man victorious, she, angry and resentful, to a bank in the city. Parking
outside the low squat building, told her to stay in the car whilst he went
inside with the official. The purpose was to oversee the financial transaction
from the Chinese government to him.
$7000.
She caught her breath. The Chinese
thought they were getting one thing but they were getting something entirely
different. They were getting five
dancers and him. They were getting backing tracks, falsehoods and lies. They had paid for one thing and getting
something entirely different. The woman felt trapped by the layers upon layers
of deception.
She
stayed silent for a long time. Then finally, when they were alone together and when
he noticed she was not herself, there was a row. She was making him tired. She
did not understand how these things worked. He had done all the work. He had
negotiated the deal. Who would know if these dancers were part of his choir or
not? The Chinese were pigs anyway. The bitterness in his voice and the anger
coming from him only compounded the woman’s feelings of isolation.
This
was not the man she had fallen in love with.
This
was not the man who had spoken with such passion and pride about his culture
and his song. This man lied, cheated and stole. The man she loved had said
quite clearly that he would have nothing to do with such corruption and she,
naively, had believed him.
In
her dealings with Georgia she had borne the brunt of such corruption only two
years before and he, he had been outraged by it and had sworn he would never be
like that, never do that.
Glancing
sideways what she saw froze her heart. His profile was like stone, cold, closed,
emotionless.
She
had never known him.
Sarah
Cobham
Hi Sarah,
ReplyDeleteBrilliant story. I felt an acute connection with "her" disappointment with "his" changing profile. A number of questions come to heart on whether the decisions he made was based on necessity in order to achieve a goal, when at the time, the amoral or corrupt option was the only presented lifeline that was evident or available with the highest probability towards the desired outcome? And, if the moral option/s were as obviously present whether he would have made the same decision?
So basically, was the option he was given the only option available to him at the time . . .
I guess the real question I am asking is: Does and should that bad decision we have made permanently define us, and should it alter and lastingly affect perceptions of those close to us, or should our profile only really become diminished when the we recurringly trade off the moral high-ground in order to achieve our objectives?
Maybe the other question is; should the "she" profile who find her/him-self in any similar situation be more patient with the "he" profile - learning and growing from mistakes made and be so quick to diminish the profile of every person who inevitably would make the wrong decision at some or other point in our lives. . .
I am not asking these questions in judgement of your short story. I don't think it would be fair to expect of you to answer them, but they were indeed my own impressions for understanding that your story left with me.
Keep on writing. You're work is thought-provoking . . .
Hi Johann,
ReplyDeleteThank you for your comments. I feel very honoured that you have taken the time and given so much thought to the themes raised in this particular piece. I have to admit I had not thought about the things you have highlighted and they have certainly made me think.
I guess the one thing I come back to is that we don't know if the male character actually engineered the 'game' from the beginning and if so if he was within it and fully conscious of what he was doing. We also don't know if he went on to make further decisions designed to reinforce and justify this particular one.
Should the female character forgive him this one choice? Should she put aside her own sense of what is right to allow him to grow? It is certainly an interesting and I think, age old,dilemma.
Thank you once again.
Sarah
Feminism? More like sexism. You stereotype and hate on Georgian men. Shame
ReplyDeleteDear Vlad,
ReplyDeleteThank you for your articulate and balanced response.
I wonder if the behaviour of the Georgian character in this story has touched a nerve in you. Perhaps looking in the mirror was more difficult after reading this piece.
I wonder why you chose to attack me personally by using the word 'shame' which implies the meaning YOU take from this writing is shameful, which implies as a woman I should take on the responsibility for YOUR inability to accept that such behaviour does exist. This is classic projection of the male ego and has been used as a form of social control where ever there is fear of the individual especially if that individual is a woman.
Perhaps you mean something different when you use the word sexism? Just to clarify from the dictionary;
sexism
ˈsɛksɪz(ə)m
noun
1.
prejudice, stereotyping, or discrimination, typically against women, on the basis of sex.
"sexism in language is an offensive reminder of the way the culture sees women"
synonyms: chauvinism, discrimination, prejudice, bias; machismo, laddishness
"he admitted that the company had been accused of sexism"
Can I just make sure I understand something correctly? YOU believe ME to be sexist because I have written about the male character being divisive, aggressive, neglectful a liar and a thief towards the woman? Hhhmm. We clearly have a different idea of what is fair and respectful behaviour inside a relationship between any two people.
I do feel that perhaps bandying words like feminism, sexism and stereotypes about as if they had no real power is irresponsible especially if the understanding of those words is tied down to a stereotypical meaning itself.
I would very much welcome a conversation with you about my writing just as soon as the shackles you try to place on me by assuming I hate Georgian men and that clearly makes everything I am ( ie a a woman before I am a person) shameful have been looked at, and addressed.
Just to clarify the dictionary definition of shame is;
shame
ʃeɪm/Submit
noun
1.
a painful feeling of humiliation or distress caused by the consciousness of wrong or foolish behaviour, humiliation, mortification, chagrin, ignominy, loss of face, shamefacedness, embarrassment, indignity, abashment, discomfort, discomfiture, discomposure guilt, remorse, contrition, compunction
antonyms: pride, indifference a loss of respect or esteem; dishonour.
"the incident had brought shame on his family"
synonyms: disgrace, discredit, degradation, ignominy, disrepute, ill-repute, infamy, scandal, odium, opprobrium, obloquy, condemnation, contempt;
"ignorance of Latin would be a disgrace and a shame to any public man" discredit to, disgrace to, stain on, blemish on, blot on, blot on the escutcheon of, slur on, reproach to, bad reflection on a regrettable or unfortunate situation or action. pity, misfortune, crying shame, cause for regret, source of regret, sad thing, unfortunate thing.
Having read all of these I can assure you I feel none of them.
Please feel free to read my blog 'The Georgian Witch'
All the best
Sarah